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You are a grieving mother and nothing will ever change that.
For this, you have my heart and I grieve with you.
I am a fellow Christian and I know we are acutely aware of the fact that we are continually faced with trials in our lives from the minute we are born.
We are Christians and that's just the way it is.
We gladly embrace the Will of our Lord because we love Him. We seek to serve God unconditionally-no matter how beaten down and destroyed we are-because our brother Jesus willingly subjected himself to what we, sometimes, also have no 'choice' but be exposed to, albeit on a lesser level.
Yes, God decided to sacrifice His own Son so that we pathetic humans may be saved! Yet, we women often relate to someone else.
As women, we identify very often with the loss Mary felt when our dear Jesus was crucified.
As women, we feel for our sisters who loved and fed and ministered to our blessed Jesus. We meditate upon and wish to emulate those brave women at the 'foot of the cross'.
My message to you, dear Sybrina, is surprisingly simple and it is this: Your true brothers and sisters understand what you are going through. The loss of a child is as repellent and as simplistic as anything can be.
What I also say to you Sabrina is this: ALL of our children have lives we don't know about.
Mother Mary (though, yes, she had a 'angelic hint', as did Joseph) had no particular blueprint to work upon, nor was she truly prepared that her child would be a 'shaper of the world'.
But this is our blessed Lord Jesus Christ we are talking about, and Heaven knows our own kids fall short on all things regarding our Lord.
Our kids fall short, because we all fall short. So it is for all humans.
The truth is that our children, as they mature, develop very real personalities and traits in their own right.
And sometimes they behave in ways we might not like, but that is how it is.
Some of our child's deportment meets our approval...and some does not, which brings us to this:
I believe that at this time, you, Sybrina are experiencing the truth of knowing that your son Trayvon had a secret life.
You are not by any means unique in this, for you have joined an entire cadre of mothers and grandmothers (such as myself) who have been forced to face the truth that a 'young person' in their life is not exactly the person they thought they were!
It happens. And it is a reality of everyday life. The problem is, Sybrina, that because of recent events, you are not only experiencing the results of what your son did or didn't do, but you are being forced to consider the possibility that you did not know your Trayvon as well as you thought that you did.
You are in good company with us, those women who have been surprised and even 'blindsided' by realities we wished would never see the light of day.
What I say to you is that I pray you will not be so blinded by rage that you act out of accordance with the Will of our Lord. If George Zimmerman was attacked by your son, allow reasonable justice.
I pray that you open your heart to the truth as presented regarding what transpired in your son's trial and that you honor God's Truth in all things, devoid of prejudice and race and bias and bigotry.
Despite your 'mother's sensitivities', Sybrina, I pray that you are able to preach honesty and goodness and decency at all times.
I pray that mother Sybrina be like Mother Mary and and take a sacred path to justice and avoid the 'world of hate' of those who thrive on racial and class division.
Most of all, I pray that those who may read this join in these prayers, that God's Will be done in all things.
We know not what God's Will is at all times, but we live in faith that our Heavenly Father certainly knows what is best for us-A message that is total nonsense for non-believers, as well I know.
Please, Sybrina, be the penultimate Christian woman with all you have gone through, my sister, different though we are, yet so very alike.
With Love in Christ
Rev. Barbara Sexton
"The Biblical Biochemist-Where Science Meets The Cross"